My Current Worries

My thinking is so cyclical and I can never find a way to break free from it.

The thing that weighs heavy on my heart and mind most days is my faith. Questions/statements of doubt like “Are you certain you believe in God?” or “A Christian wouldn’t do that!” fill my head constantly. I pray every day and ask for forgiveness, but do I really mean it? Or. Am I just taking advantage of God’s endless grace, mercy, and love. “...the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” is what comes to my mind when I go down this rabbit hole of doubt and fall into temptations I battle daily. I feel like I am manipulating God, but how foolish it is of me to think I even have power over Him.

My relationship with God has been messy all throughout my life, but I always end up returning to Him. No matter how deep I dive into my doubt and self-loathing the Holy Spirit always manages to bring me back to Him.

These are my current worries.